Wedding Day

 June 12, 2021, 5:30 AM, I cant sleep. 

It's raining on the day of my outdoor wedding, so naturally, I go wash my truck in the rain. I can't believe its my wedding day. We waited a year and a half for this day, and all of a sudden, its here. 

The rehearsal dinner the night before was so fun. Family, friends, laughter. We ate too much and drank a little, giving speeches and sharing stories, crying and hugging. It was family. Afterwards, I had gone to Billy's family's cabin up at the lake to chat with them before the big day. It was really nice to be able to just sit and relax with Billy's family. He made sure to get me home before midnight though, because he wanted to call and say goodnight, but refused to talk to, or see me, past midnight cause then it was technically the wedding day. 

Miranda (my best friend and maid of honor) and I hopped in my truck, with some posters and a staple gun to go have us a morning of fun. We hung 6 or 7 "Falk/Wisor Wedding" posters directing people to my house, and went to my favorite coffee shop to get breakfast and a coffee before heading to Safeway to buy the stuff to vandalize the "getaway car" with. 

As soon as we got back to the house, it was already bustling with activity. The sun was finally shining!  Tents were being decorated in the front yard, fruit kabobs were being made in the kitchen, and my giant dress was being steamed in the garage. I tried to help out, keeping my eye on the hours slowly counting down. Bridesmaids started showing up, drinks got poured, and we got the Bridal Beauty Train underway. 

Now, I don't know if you have ever witnessed a bunch of nervous, possibly tipsy girls get ready before, but let me explain it to you. 

There was one, minor and short freak-out by the bride,  three spiked Redbulls, one curling iron, and an epic, once in a lifetime experience, concert.  There were side conversations, questions that had no answers, lots of A-Capella, a little High School Musical, makeup advice from people who had no business giving it (me), a cloud of hairspray, at one point, my little brother was in the mix somewhere. Alas, somehow, the end result was two beautiful, perfectly pampered bridesmaids, and one bride. 

We had 15 minutes until I had to be walking down that isle and the nerves were growing. My mom was still getting on her dress, my flower girls had no idea what they were doing, and I didn't know either. I wasn't in my dress. I hadn't seen my dad, and I didn't even know if my dress was going to button. 

The next thing I can remember, my dad has a grip on my arm, keeping me from falling. I was walking towards Billy but I couldn't remember what number I was at. Was I walking too fast? It was supposed to take me 45 seconds. Then, I was holding Billy's hand. That felt like a lot less than 45 seconds. 

Life slowed down once I was facing Billy. He threw me a wink, and I knew I was standing up there with my best friend. Everything else would be ok. While our pastor was talking, we tried to slyly get my ring off my finger so Billy wouldn't have to fumble with it later, but he almost dropped it. I couldn't stop smiling. The ring ceremony went perfectly (we had both been worried about the rings fitting... it was a whole ordeal the day before) He mouthed that he loved me. I was holding hands with my best friend on our wedding day, and I knew that everything was going to be ok. 

The rest of the wedding went off without a hitch. It was a complete blast. There was family, and pictures, and games on the lawn. The food was amazing, the speeches were beautiful, and I got initiated into the Walters/Wisor family (I'd tell you what happened, but then I'd have to kill you ;)). We cut the cake with a sword (yeah, an actual sword.) The getaway car was completely trashed. Sawdust was everywhere, Loser was written on the trunk in lipstick (the L was backwards), and the doors were twined shut. 

Luckily, we had hid my truck so my dad could go fetch it for us (haha, jokes on you, boys), we hopped in my clean, white truck and sped off into happiness.  

I can't believe that it happened. It was crazy, and fun, and amazing and I can't thank the people that helped, enough. Everybody was so kind and generous, you have truly filled mine and William's life with love and happiness. We are so excited to share this adventure with you!!! Here are some of the photos our guests took and sent us <3 

Bride to Be

 We are now 10 days from the best day of my life (this far) 

My house is buzzing with wedding talk, I'm rejoicing that my wedding diet is almost over, and my front lawn is being transformed in to a 5 star venue.  My bags are all packed,  my chalked out UHAUL is almost full, and the count down for the day Billy arrives at my house, is in the single digits. 

My house is like a beehive, full of activity and noise. 

Last night, I was on my walk and it all hit me at once. I have been engaged for so long, been away from Billy for so long, that I almost can't believe that its almost time. I am about to drive away from my parents, my little brother, all of my friends, everything. I will be a random person in the largest growing city in America. For the first time in my life, I wont be "So-and-so's daughter", I won't be anybody's daughter. I'll be somebody's wife!!! 

Realization has been hitting me in waves. One moment, I'm the distracted squirrel, not really paying attention to what's going on, sorta running through the motions of what's been asked of me, and the next, my panic monkey takes the wheel and in 15 minutes I have my entire closet packed in to boxes and I cant find a single pair of jeans to wear. 

It almost feels frantic, trying to spend time with my little brother, make plans with our pastor, remember who I need to talk to about rehearsal dinners, make a day-of plan, try to figure out how I can help while my parents create a little village on our lawn.. All while I am trying to make plans for crossing the country, talk to the groom, coordinate with his family, make sure all my things are packed in a way that will fit in our UHAUL, its almost hard to take a second to enjoy this season of my life, because every breath it seems, is filled with anxiety and pressure. 

Yet, through all of it, I get to see the way God has so abundantly blessed my life. I get to marry my best friend, who strives to lead our house in Jesus Christ, I get to grow up with him, and learn and adventure and experience my entire youth with him. My friends and family have been showing such an incredible outpouring of love and generosity, hosting bridal showers for me, and filling my heart with joy. Even through the chaos, I think that everybody close to me has gotten to truly see the Lords hand in all of this, and experience His love. 

I was not expecting any of this goodness. I'll be honest, I was anticipating something awful. I started this season of engagement feeling inconvenient, burdensome, and stupid. There were time I wondered if it was actually right, or worth it, but God has shown me how He used all those times to keep me on a path that was so much more fulfilling than I had ever imagined. Over the last year and a half, my relationship has changed drastically. We have been forced to grow up in a lot of ways, discovered growth, and faced hard truths that ultimately changed us for the better. 

Let me just say, it was all worth it 

I can't wait to get a hug from Billy again. Its been 10 months!!!! I almost want to cry with excitement. I can't wait to blog about all of it. I will try to keep my blog more updated, now that I am moving away and starting my own adventure!!! Life is FULL of adventure, and  I am really blessed to be on this one.

Thank you to my readers! You guys rock, and truly, you are blessings. Thank you!!