Adventure Time!!

Do any of you remember a few months back when I asked you if you thought I should go to Portland or Bend for college?

Well I actually went to Spokane.

Sorry that my posts have been so sparse this summer! I went on so many crazy adventures and trips, I have things to say about bravery and friendship with a brother and my process of growing up in the last three months from graduation to now....

I'll get all that done. Eventually. I swear.

Right now, I'm going to talk about the past week.

Its really weird, walking out of your room. Its something we do so many times, every day, and yet one day, you walk out, and you know the next time you walk in, it will be different. I closed the door on my freshly made bed, my swept floors, and empty closet. I dragged a 50 pound suitcase to my car, the last of the bags I would be taking to college with me, and started my car.

I knew it wasn't the last time I'd be in wallowa county. I knew I'd be back in just a few weeks  to watch a friend of mine be baptized, but it still felt weird. My brother and I sat in silence. Coming home again or not, we both knew that our childhood together was over. We hit the rattlesnake grade and turned up the tunes though. One last jam session together, yeah? My parents followed behind. we crossed the Oregon/Washington state line, smiling.

I'm currently living with family friends. It felt like just another sleepover the first night, but watching my parents drive away from me the next day after college orientation was like watching a part of me walk away. I honestly miss home. I haven't cried that much. I've been pretty busy this week with taking care of getting a bank and a job and switching over to my own phone plan, and being drug around with Rachel and dates with William.

I've called my mom for more advice in the past few days than I have in 16 years combined. Which phone plan? Which bank? Are checks or debit cards a better idea? Credit Union or bank? I've been making choices this week I didn't even know I had. I've been doing extensive research and updating my spread sheet of costs and budgeting, basically daily as I gather new information. What do I need? Where can I cut costs?

I like lists. I like knowing whats up and I like having a schedule. I like plans. I kinda feel like I'm waking up in the mornings to wait now. I want classes to start. I was a job. Why do I have to wait? Why do I have to be patient? I like things to happen fast. My plan for moving to Spokane was to have a job and a phone plan and a bank all figured out by the first couple days, start work on the next monday, and be occupied with something that contained visible purpose, daily. Its hard for me to slow down and relax and just be ok with how things are. College hasn't even started yet and I'm already learning a lot.

Its annoying, why can't things just work on my time? LIke. Come on dude. I had a plan. A PLAN. Will you please follow it with me? I know I'm making progress and getting things in order but it feels like I'm sitting still and I am so bored.

Don't get me wrong though. This whole adventure is so exciting. I'm learning to drive in the city! I'm learning to navigate some low-level adulthood! I'm learning independence! Making choices!! I live in SPOKANE. MY FAV PLACE EVER. College will be an adventure and I am so excited to bring you guys along with me!!