Why I Haven't Been Posting

Hello!!! I miss you guys :( lets have a little chat.

The past four months, has been insane. In February, I got a job, and flew to Chicago in the same week, that's kinda when the insanity started. I work for Wake Up Call Coffee, and William has graduated from Navy boot camp. The rest of February was a blur of school and work.

Suddenly, it was March. March is finals month, March is my birthday month. In March, during finals week, which was also my birthday, I got in a little fender bender and wound up needing a new hood and fender on my car. I passed my final, though!!! With flying colors! I wrote my thesis on human trafficking and how I think we can stop it. I actually got a letter from the school to congratulate me on my GPA. I also had some doctors appointments to see if we could figure out what was going on with my stomach. We waited almost four weeks for results, and found out that they found nothing.

Because I hadn't had a solid job until February, I couldn't afford to go back to school after spring break, which brings us to April. There had been chatter about me moving into a new house in the valley, and we had the first of June as a rough date for that to happen, however middle of April, I would up having a meeting, and moving my whole house in like 24 hours. It was crazy. Two days later I went home for another doctors appointment. That was the week of Easter, I wound up having to stay an extra day for another doctors appointment, and we still came up blank. I had also planned an entire trip to Florida, middle of April. I had the help of Lisa, but yeah. I found a house that was close enough to the base that Billy wouldn't have issues, I picked days and got flights. I felt very grown up lol.

MAY. Holy cow hello May. William is now in Pensacola, FL for school. He just graduated from NACCS (Naval Air Crew Candidate School) with flying colors. I went to Florida a few days ago. I guess its officially a week ago that I got back. That trip was such a confidence boost. I was so nervous. I didn't know how I was going to figure out Taxis and terminals and a military base. Yet, I did!! Again, I had some help form Lisa. She helped me figure out my boarding passes and instructed me on how to get a taxi and all that. Yet, when the day came, I was so nervous I could hardly walk my legs were shaking so bad. I did it though. I spent a week in a different state, across the country from anyone who could help me if something went wrong. I figured out a guest pass for base, I checked my man out for the weekend. I figured it out!

Its been a crazy year for me. I've been working at 3:30 AM pretty much every morning since March.

I guess I do have a lesson. I have looked at every month in my planner, and written in the times I had to go to work, and all the things I had to get done each day, and I've felt defeated. I've felt small and incapable. How on earth am I going to be able to get all of this stuff done? How am I going to be able to accomplish anything?  Yet, every day, I wake up and I get it done. I look back now, and I just can't believe that I've done it. Like, guys. I did it. I have a job, I have a really great, ideal honestly, living situation. I've got obstacles. lots of obstacles I still have to over come, but I feel less afraid. God just has this really uncanny way of shaping me into this capable person. Giving me tools that I need to accomplish the tasks at hand.

I'm not going to lie, I have felt like my life is pointless recently. I wake up and I do the same things every day and I don't feel like I'm growing, but the closer I look, the more growth I see. Honestly, just writing this blog has helped me see a lot of growth. I have accomplished so much. If you're in a rut, and you feel like you're not doing anything meaningful, maybe just take a closer look. God has a plan for you, and maybe right now hes just getting you ready for a bigger job. Or maybe your doing that job, but instead of doing it all at once, Hes taking you though it day by day.

Guys, this is crazy. What a time to be alive! Not just for me, but for all of us. We are all doing something, moving towards bigger things. Learning and growing and making it through days we feel like we will never get through. Things in our communities need voices, things in our worlds need voices. There are topics being discussed and growth to be had and it feels like everything around us is moving so fast. Maybe take a moment to just reflect. Listen to yourself for a second. We all play an irreplaceable role on earth. That's why God chose each of us individually.

I hope to be back to blogging more frequently. Its like therapy for my soul, even if no one reads my blog.






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