I beg you...

I know I've talked about my insecurities in the past. Encouraged you guys to be brave, take the jump. I said that I would race. 

I will first present my lesson: don't let what you tell yourself in your head, regardless of whether others said it first or not, dictate how you live your life. 

I am in LOVE with racing. I was so scared. It was a relay, I'd never ran a relay before. Heck, I had never ran a race before. I was scared about the baton, and what if I was the slowest? What if kids whispered? No. Its not an if. What were the kids gonna say? 

Okay well let me tell you. I was the slowest. I did not drop the baton. No one was talking. I was proud of myself. We came in dead last, and I still felt like a winner. Why? Because truly, I had the option to not do it. In fact, I didn't have to run it at all. I did anyways. I pushed myself to. I was like "Dude, please just do this" 

I was begging myself. I knew that I was standing in my own way. The voice of insecurity. The voice that was telling me "no you can't." I know we all hear that voice sometimes. The one that sneaks in when you least expect it and says "how about no" and ruins a perfectly courageous moment. Its like you're standing on the edge of this liberation cliff, and all you have to do is jump and all of a sudden you're life is gonna be full of so much more, but a small voice says no, and you stop.

Yeah, that small voice. That little whisper inside of your mind. It controls you, it steals from you. It kidnaps you. It imprisons you. What you need to realize right now, is that that little voice is SMALLER THAN YOU ARE. You don't actually have to be controlled by that voice. 

Just believe in yourself. 

I know its way easier said than done. I know it because I lived it. I'm begging you, stop listening to the lie. Stop hearing the voice in your mind that is telling you that you are less than you are. I'm begging you. This is not a gentle plea. This is not an informative blog post. This isn't a rant or an epiphany. Its a straight-up beg. You have no idea what you might be missing out on right now. 

You are being lied to by yourself. You are able to do it. You are stronger. You are brave enough. You are completely capable, even if you have to take steps before you are completely qualified, you are capable of making those moves. YOU. ARE. ENOUGH. 

Its said that we ought to live with no regrets, and I haven't. I don't regret being scared of doing things. I am bummed that I wasn't brave enough to just race as an 8th grader, but look. I couldn't be reaching you, with words of life. I couldn't hold such conviction. 

Its odd for me to think that I could possibly affect a life, possibly change it or have wisdom at all. Maybe I don't, but please. Take what I have to say to heart. I'm coming to you with an honest heart full of good intent. I know I sound desperate, but that's because I am. If you need someone to talk to about it, feel free to message me. 

I don't want you to follow the same road. You have no idea what you might find if you just face your fear. 

XO ~ G