I just recently watched my mothers wedding video, and boy. Shes gorgeous. Shes beautiful. I didn't know my mom when she was my age. I didn't know my mom when she was 23, and I didn't know my mom on her wedding day, but I can see her in her smile. I can still see that youthful, fun loving woman. Shes so beautiful, it takes my breath away and it makes me cry a little. My mom doesn't wear flower print jeans, or leather jackets anymore (I wear her clothes for her :) ), but every time she smiles, every time she laughs, I can still see the girl that is in her senior photos. Her wedding video, the pictures of her and her sisters and HER mom.
My mom was at the door with open arms, every day I came home from school in tears over what some kid said that day. My mom wiped my tears and told me she loved me. My mother was in and out of the principals office, defending my honor after I was falsely accused. For YEARS she was in and out of that office, defending me against the rest of the world.
My mom drove me to all of my sports practices, she was at every game, and she brought the best snacks when it was her turn. My mom also went above and beyond to give me the best birthday parties in school, knowing it was the only hour out of every school year, where kids WANTED to be my friend, because I got to pick who did "heads up, 7 up" with me.
My mom ate the gross creations we made in the kitchen, with a smile on her face. She made me feel remarkably special when she took me on trips in her Thunderbird car. My mom was my biggest fan. She fought so hard for me. I know I was not an easy kid. I was messy, I was dramatic, I sucked in school, I was always sick, I was boy crazy (but only for like, 11 years) I think that at the end of the day, I was just a crazy twerp.
My mom gave up a lot for me. I was NOT easy to raise.
As I got older, my actions had bigger reactions, like changing schools, and a totaled car and a heavy heart. My sunny disposition and chubby fingers turned into depression and starving myself, and my mom was right there to root me on, to motivate me and comfort me through it.
When we found out that I was always sick because of gluten, my mom was the one to remember, even when I forgot. She made sure I felt confident in my new outfits every year, when I decided to cut all my hair off, dye it black, and perm it, my mom was there beside me (making sure I didn't make any really awful hair choices), and helping me pick out new outfits so I could feel totally boss, and rand new.
My mom has always been the one in the kitchen, teaching me how to cook. Teaching me how to bake (even when I was rebelling against her help), always the one to confide in and talk to, always the one with the best playlists, and always my fav person to day dream about making music videos to our fav songs. Even now, my mom is going to bat for me when people say crule things about my Fiance and I.
I forgot to stop and look and realize and SEE. I forgot to pause for a second and live in the moments. For a second, I was so wrapped up in myself and my own world and my own problems, that I forgot to look around me and see the actual beauty.
So yeah. I'm losing my mind, and therefor dancing like an idiot and filming it, but quarantine has helped me look at my mom, because its just been the two of us (until the boys come home). Yes, big scary and major things are happening all over the world, but what if you stop focusing on the big scary out there, and realize the beauty inside the walls we are all trapped in right now?
You might see something amazing.
I love you momma. Happy mothers day. No matter what my last name is, I will always be your little girl
My mom gave up a lot for me. I was NOT easy to raise.
As I got older, my actions had bigger reactions, like changing schools, and a totaled car and a heavy heart. My sunny disposition and chubby fingers turned into depression and starving myself, and my mom was right there to root me on, to motivate me and comfort me through it.
When we found out that I was always sick because of gluten, my mom was the one to remember, even when I forgot. She made sure I felt confident in my new outfits every year, when I decided to cut all my hair off, dye it black, and perm it, my mom was there beside me (making sure I didn't make any really awful hair choices), and helping me pick out new outfits so I could feel totally boss, and rand new.
My mom has always been the one in the kitchen, teaching me how to cook. Teaching me how to bake (even when I was rebelling against her help), always the one to confide in and talk to, always the one with the best playlists, and always my fav person to day dream about making music videos to our fav songs. Even now, my mom is going to bat for me when people say crule things about my Fiance and I.
I forgot to stop and look and realize and SEE. I forgot to pause for a second and live in the moments. For a second, I was so wrapped up in myself and my own world and my own problems, that I forgot to look around me and see the actual beauty.
So yeah. I'm losing my mind, and therefor dancing like an idiot and filming it, but quarantine has helped me look at my mom, because its just been the two of us (until the boys come home). Yes, big scary and major things are happening all over the world, but what if you stop focusing on the big scary out there, and realize the beauty inside the walls we are all trapped in right now?
You might see something amazing.
Aaawe!! Thanks beautiful girl! God Bless You ~ I love you <3
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your engagement!
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely tribute. Thanks for sharing. Your mom is always there for us too. So give her a foot rub for me please :). Unless she is ticklish...