2023

 2022 was a year of unexpected healing, and answers to questions I didn’t know I was asking. So many blessings came my way! Yet, I couldn’t help but watch with envy and longing as my friends achieved great things. They were starting businesses, having babies, traveling, graduating college… the list goes on.  I felt old. I felt like my youth was over and now I had to be an adult. I know that sounds crazy for some of you, but it was a real and true feeling for me! 

I work with a bunch of 23 year olds (give or take a few years either direction) and they were always going out and bar hopping, or going to silent disco and I was either not invited, or it was the one night that I had FRG. I watched my friends relish in youth while I planned events nobody came to and made over-priced avocado toast. I went down a route that was safe, and I was honestly happy doing it. I didn’t feel super fulfilled, but I almost felt like that was supposed to be how my life went. 

Of course, that’s not REALLY how my year looked, but we all know that feeling when we feel sorry for ourselves and m,Abe a little trapped or stuck, and all of a sudden everything is tinged with a gray. Like I said, it was a year of healing. I like to move a billion hours a minute so taking a year to heal and rest and just get settled into “military wife life” was necessary  like charging a phone! But I’m at 100% now and ready to roll. 

I forget that I can just do stuff. Like if I want to go back to college, I really actually can. I don’t have to wait for somebody else to workout with and feel strong again. I don’t even have to work at a job where I feel undervalued! I am allowed to do stuff. 

So 2023 is going to be MY year. I don’t exactly have a New Years resolution, but I do know who and where I want to be in a year and I’ve got a list of goals and a list of ways to reach each goal. 

I can’t remember the last time I felt this exhilarated. I feel like I am standing on top of this giant cliff and I know I am about to jump, and there are little challenge coins the whole way down labeled with all of my goals and I’ve got this giant breath in my lungs, full of burning anticipation, a little fear, and a whole lot of “holy shit I’m actually going to do this” 

There are so many things I have planned, one that’s pretty huge (for me, anyways) but I want to wait to share it until I know I can make it all a reality. I am so excited for 2023 and leaning into Gods plan for my life, listening to His guidance, and taking that huge jump off of that cliff. 

I’m headed to the gym right now (that’s part of one of my goals!) but have a great day, and STAY HYDRATED (that should be your goal too, you know who you are. Drink some water) <3 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!