Yes! That is right! College. Because I am a senior. It still tickles me to think I am going to graduate high school. It just seemed like something that would never happen. Now I'm picking out colleges, trying to apply, and the reality of it all is crashing around me.
I'm not going to be able to come home every night and give my mom a hug. She wont be at the store with me, helping me pick out super smart food choices to make quick, healthy meals. I wont have to ask her if I can go out with friends. I'm going to be independent.
Yes, of course I have been independent in the past. I know I am capable of doing things. I am smart, and even if I don't know how to do something, I know I can learn. But this feels like a new kind of independence. Like I slammed the table and everything flew into the air, and now its stuck there with no support. I'm worried about jobs, paying for college, being able to balance school and work and being able to pay my bills. Also, what college do I go to? Do I go to the one with dorms and a meal plan, and a good creative writing course, or do I go to the college with no dorms or meal plans, but has a great creative writing? Or do I just ditch both those ideas and go farther away from home?
Are my fears irrational??
I am a smart, capable, young woman with the world ahead of her. I'm scared of being too scared to grab it. Now where does that get me? I honestly never pictured myself graduating. Not because I wasn't capable, I just never really thought about making it that far I guess.
Its my last year of cheerleading, my last year of track and my last year of sitting in a safe place where I know every inch of the town, people who support me literally surround me. Everyone in the county knows my dad, knows me. If my car breaks down, my dad is a phone call away. If I'm having a hard day, relief is a hug from my mom away.
Bend, Portland... both are huge. I don't visit either place frequently. Both are far from home, and I'm just jumping in!
Seriously, if you guys have any input, any questions I should be asking the colleges, tips on how you survived this journey, ideas on what to do. What were some things that went well for you? went bad? What were some things you wish you knew before you went to college? Drop in in the comments! PLEASE. This is really important to me and I would appreciate your insight so much. Thank you!
~xoxo G
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Don't forget-- you ARE brilliant, strong, and determined-- ANd the most important thing-- support is only a phone call away...truly. It may take a bit longer for your support to arrive, but it is still just a call away! So much excitement and adventure awaits you and I simply can NOT wait to see where this journey takes you! And my advice...go with the solid meal plan and housing arrangements...it helps provide stable basic necessities and will connect you with lots of on-campus events and programs. In fact, I mentor three students living in housing now and we go to games, out to lunch, and just check-in. Lots of universities have that kind of support for students living on campus...and BTW, I didn't see "Cheney" in that list of cities! ;-) Hugs to you beautiful lady!
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